My thumb skidded across to the switch of the lamp, the only source of light in my dark room. One click later, I was shrouded in darkness. But the darkness didn’t faze me in the slightest. When your mind, heart and soul are all engulfed by the darkness, physically being in a dark place wasn’t a big deal. I welcomed it. Because it is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, and I had had the cruel taste of both.
My body might be here, but I am somewhere else. Well, I haven’t reached it yet. I’m waiting.
You might be wondering if I’m dead. Sadly, no. Oh, how I wish I was. I live to die. To join him.
My mind is drifting, traveling through time and space, taking me to a place where the only guests allowed are him and I. Somewhere, a place that nobody knows. Somewhere only we know.
He’s here, I thought as my eyes caught sight of a man’s silhouette. His silhouette. My lips stretched into a genuine smile, one that only came at night. I was one step closer to being two steps far from him. I felt him move closer, entwining his fingers in mine.
“Let’s go.” He whispered in my ear, sending chills of excitement down my spine. This euphoric thrill, this exhilaration had become my will to live. It gave me bright nights to return to after enduring the tough hours of dark days.
I even forgave him for his carelessness that night when he made that brutal, reckless decision without stopping to think about me. I forgave because even in death, he didn’t forget me. I knew he’d always come back for me at the beginning of each night, making the endless pain worth it all.
My eyelids flutter close, and I finally leave your reality behind, and arrive at mine. My eyes take some time to accustom themselves to the brightness of the meadow we were currently sprawled across. A soft blanket of grass covered the uneven ground with small efflorescent flowers scattered around, adding pops of blue, purple, red and yellow. Fluffy white clouds were sailing across the sky to visit the ones they wished to see. The glittering moon hung in the sky, next to the smiling, glowing sun which was floating about. And underneath all that, lay him with his beauty enthralling enough to rival nature’s.
His perfect lips curved into a grin, making his dimples pop and my heart race in the process. My long fingers wove through his soft, chocolate curls.
I noticed a change in the ground below us.
“Are we falling?” I inquire, merely curious.
He turns towards me and says, “Do you want to?”
“No, I want to fly.” I reply.
“Then of course, we’ll fly.” he decides.
And just like that, with our arms stretching wide, we were shooting upwards, leaving a trail of billowing smoke behind us. We swam through galaxies, jumped across meteors, and traveled through planets.
We are currently having a footrace, and our course was the ring of Saturn. Panting, we stop to relax, thoughts of the race completely forgotten when we look into each other’s eyes.
“We have to leave. For now.” he says.
I nod, understanding.
In an instant, we exit our dark paradise.
“Sleep well, darling.” he requests, his lips ghosting on my forehead.
“For now.” I remind him, the memory of his emerald eyes the last thing swirling around my mind before I am taken over by unconsciousness.
And so, even death couldn’t do us apart. Reality did.